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8Dec/10Off

yeah this midnight air is cold and barren …

I've been trying to figure out a way to start this without doing a "well, I've wanted to write, so here I am" or one of those provincial sort of "welcome to my blog" first entries. Chances are, at least at this point, if you're here, you know me in some form and I've probably begged you to come here. (Relax, take your coat off, stay awhile ...)

Instead, let me try this. It's cold outside. It's kinda chilly in my apartment. I'm wearing a hoodie with the hood up and last night I slept with one of my woolen Burton hats on. Such is life. The past few days have been a blur, the next few promise to be, more than likely, just as blurry. Not drunken blurry, more one of those Ferris Bueller: "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it" things. Seems to me a perfect time to do this. "Do this, here, thing", as Dean Martin used to say.

I'm in the thick of it. I'm stuck in the middle. I've got so much to give, to share, to learn, to grow. Monday, four copies of mae's final EP, "(e)vening", arrived at work (I live in a building without a doorman, so I'm forced to have packages sent to work. Ugh. #whiteboyproblems). Today, I started listening to one of them and was instantly in love, instantly broken and instantly reminded of why this band means so much to me. Love mae or not, there's something different about Dave Elkins' lyrics and something very personal about this and the past two EPs. They remind me of a loss so great, it's practically unimaginable. They remind me that I might never have known about mae without one of my closest friends. And, most importantly, they remind me that I'm still alive and that I not only have my life to live, but, maybe, just maybe, I'm living for someone else too.

That sounds like a burden and I'm sure to some it could, and would, be. To me, it's a challenge. It's a big world and, let's be honest, it's mine for the taking. It takes a song like "Bloom" ("Yeah we've lost our way and walked around it/Yeah we've found our faith and then unwound it/Yeah this midnight air is cold and barren/Yeah but the bloom of hope it keeps repairing") to remind me that I can do it.

So, I'll be here. Writing less frequently than I'd like and probably too infrequently to get really mentioned. But, the kid you've grown to love who tweets and blogs about food trucks, food, schnitzel and what really matters is right here. Let's give this a go and see where we end up. That's what it's all about after all, isn't it?

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  1. Ah, you know me, I like to get all quotey.

    “Life does not consist mainly, or even largely, of facts and happenings. It consists mainly of the storm of thought that is forever flowing through one’s head.” Mark Twain

    “The purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience.” Eleanor Roosevelt

    Glad to see you here! Looking forward to reading more. <3

  2. You took the leap… GO YOU! Can’t wait to read more as you figure this blog stuff out. I need to figure it out myself (you’ll find my site “under construction”) and not only will I look forward to reading yours, but you’re an inspiration to kick myself in the ass and make mine happen. Yes, that is what it’s all about!

  3. I”m glad you’re here. I look forward to reading. Thanks for the invitation. It won’t let me post because I goofed the first time; if this doesn’t work, I’ll e-mail you. :-)

  4. I think “Welcome to the Blogosphere” is appropriate … But then, you whet your feet with Posterous so I don’t think there will be much of a learning curve for you.

    Here’s the part that got me ::Yeah but the bloom of hope it keeps repairing:: At least for me, hope is what drives me forward no matter what comes, good and bad.

    Looking forward to what comes! I’ll be reading.

  5. Glad to read the first post.

    P.S. Thanks for reminding me to miss Mae more. :)

  6. @pam Where would I be without you? #TWS
    @jen I said it in email, but I’ll say it here too … I’m so fortunate to know you.
    @AuntJudy Thanks!
    @Maj I miss you, buddy.
    @Kirsten Such a sweet comment. I’ll try to keep up. Thanks!

  7. @christel this was for you as much as it was for me . you cant know how glad i am to have such a huge mae fan like you as a friend .

  8. I’ve missed reading your writing. You’ve grown up, young man.

  9. congrats on making the cyber jump with such a beautifully sweet first post. look forward to hearing more of your musings.
    xx

  10. @mary I can’t believe I just called you Mary. (Ahem, thanks.)
    @charyn Entirely too kind.

  11. Great to read this piece. Good to actually put feelings so close to your heart on paper.

  12. I read this at a ridiculously good time; in the ethereal moment of appreciating the art of a writer, and the person behind the pen and paper.. or computer. I’m so glad you’re channeling your thoughts and stories through the blog world. I’m 500% excited to read more!

    I love quoting as well. This will resonate a bit for me:

    “I’m in the thick of it. I’m stuck in the middle. I’ve got so much to give, to share, to learn, to grow”

    Hits the heart in more ways anyone could possibly know. Good stuff. The crowd is going wild and wants more! Kudos!

  13. It’s funny (maybe odd to outsiders) how quickly we fell in love with you. That might sound strange to read, but it was what I quickly typed. I have already spent time on iTunes finding this Mae that I’ve never heard of and cant wait to spend the evening listening to what seems very powerful stuff. if you embrace this blog with the same heartfelt, intensity and caring as you have with meeting people on twitter, i have no doubt this is sure to bring attention to your musings.
    -your #1 fans, jade & bob.

  14. Thanks for the update

  15. Great post Greg! I’ve always been a fan of your writing and well i have saved lots of things that you have written! (Remember all the Austria pre-blog blogs??) Who is Mae? Hey, at my age what do you expect? God gives each of us gifts. So glad to see you using one of yours! Love ya! ma

  16. I’ve been trying to go without heat as well if that’s what you were getting at. It’s an interesting experience. Glad to read, I like what you wrote and I will continue to read.

  17. You said it all, and as always, with that Greg style and grace. Knew there was a reason I respect and admire you so much. Can’t wait to read more, going to listen to some Mae now…

  18. this post makes me feel like getting together and having a record party- “do you like this?! what about this?!” but i’ll settle for saying thanks to you for this unintentional gift (mae) at just the perfect time, by way of some beautiful writing :)